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9/30/2025

we're so back. both so much and so little has happened in the past 5 years. despite all the GRUELING, PAINFUL ANGUISH i still feel im more or less the exact same person.

a couple failed relationships, alcoholism, and a failed suicide attempt later you have the very ill yet striking double D woman you see back before you.

im on the last couple semesters of my computer engineering degree, so i dont (or at least, i really shouldnt) have a lot of time to mess with this, but id like to come back here and flesh out the website here and there.

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10/1/2025

made a new diary page

didnt know how to make the old one less bulky, so for now its still displayed - just not in use. happy halloween month.

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10/10/2025

just got home with a frozen pizza on this wonderful friday night.
the other day, i had a lady hold me up at a stop sign. she screamed at me that i was a "no good whore", frankly it frightened me that she knew that. she had also threatened to come out and quote, "beat my ass", but i dont know how thatd be possible for her. she was about 65 years of age, obese, and was wearing a sports cap with kitty ears on it. i think she would have struggled to reach me had she chosen to get out of her car. anyhow, im not totally sure what the issue was. perhaps god wanted to remind me to limit my outside time. the whole thing was kind of a relief, i was surprised that i didnt feel too bad afterward. for a significant portion of my life something like that wouldve totally demolished my week - not even just my day. maybe i have changed after all.

ive put my pizza in the oven and wrote a post and some replies to a pointless discussion post for my class. I LOVE THE MACHINATIONS AND BUREAUCRACY OF ACADEMIA.

special shoutout to people who leave nice messages in my guestbook. you guys remind me that life isnt all fat-old-ladies-wearing-weird-cat-hats-who-yell-at-me.

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10/13/2025

today i had a girl thank me for a past warning about a guy she was talking to. i wont get into it, it was over 3 years ago and ive longed moved past it, but hes your typical user. lying lustful cheater, you get the gist. anyway, she unfortunately wasted 2 years of time on him. she hadn't believed me when i told her about everything a couple years back.

i wont lie, i really had to fight back the urge to say "i told you so!", because i would've really appreciated and adheered to a warning at that time. but, she seemed nice enough. i feel bad for her.

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10/15/2025

i took an exam today and my webcam broke halfway in :^( i think they might fail me lol

poo poo pooooooooooooooooo poop

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10/16/2025

my professor is the goat and he will infact NOT be flunking that exam

THANK YOU PROFESSOR [redacted]

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10/22/2025

im making a really simple diary app in python for fun, it lets u click on the days and select a mood (changes the lil color of the day) + write a diary for the day. i wonder if anyone would be interested in using it eventually? o_O here's a pic of how it looks. it should look a little better later, cus theres still stuff i wanna add. i just wanted to make sure i could actually code something that works...that has an executable...ahaha...

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10/25/2025

some updates to my diary app, you can select an image of the day! the selected day is pressed in one the calendar! and now you can draw an image of the day now too!!! ooooohhh... here's a pic of the drawing portion cus the other things arent as interesting. its slightly buggy, so i wanna fix it up and then release it ^_^ i figured out how to make it executable, but i wanna keep it from 1) being flagged as malware a billion times and 2) opening the cmd prompt on program start @_@

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11/21/2025

whoops i went most of november without saying a whole lot.

i havent really been doing too much, just been doing a lot of thinking as always. oh - and i could really use a cigarette. like i could REALLY REALLLLLLLLY use a cigarette. i think i may just go grab a pack after i finish writing this entry and smoke to my unhealthy-little-heart's content.

in the realm of actually doing things, ive just been wrapping up final projects. my teammates across all my classes have been incredibly useless. i wrote a really long rant about how stupid the whole world is, but i think anyone who has ever had to go outside and do anything ever probably knows that already.

in the not-so-important-realm of doing things, ive been playing a lot of minecraft. here's some stuff i made: cathedral front, cathedral back, cathedral inside, cathedral inside p2, old church, townhall. i want to expand off the townhall and add your usual medieval-y stuff like a blacksmith, soldier barracks, little houses, butcher shop, etc. i'm still working on paving out the ground and gathering materials and shit. currently working on putting an inn to the right of the townhall.

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12/3/2025

ahhh i feel lazy...let me come back to this later *scratches ass*

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